Pray

Tomorrow morning I am going into the hospital for a treatment for my depression that frankly is a little scary and very controversial. I've had good luck with it recently (thank God) so we are going to do it again. Please lift me up in prayer and my doctor and his team as they work on my treatment.

Other than that, life is just sort of plugging along. It feels like the world's longest week. Each day has seemed to last an eternity plus I've been really tired struggling with some depression. I've gone to bed early each night to give my body the rest I need to combat what my physiology does to me with this bipolar disorder. Rest for me is my key tool in my toolbox. Along with a really really great doctor that I can't go on enough about. I'm so thankful for him and his wisdom over the many years that he's been my physician.

So wish me luck er I mean, pray for me as I have a big day planned for tomorrow!

Cheers!

Seek God

I like how God uses "little" things to remind us of Him. Take tonight, as I drove home from a meeting, he put on the most unbelievable sunset I'd ever seen.  I took a shot. Unfortunately it won't let me upload it.

Today I went to work for a couple of hours then had to come home because I was so tired and dizzy that I could barely function. I came home and slept about 4 hours without any medication. I was tired. I then ran an errand that needed doing and enjoyed the air conditioning.

Tonight I'm thankful that my kids are doing so great in school. I'm thankful that I did get to spend a half hour or so with them. We had a school meeting tonight so I didn't get my parenting time. My parents were gracious enough to watch them and take them to dinner. They seemed to have fun.

My words of wisdom tonight are to encourage you to seek God. He wants to be found by us. Seek Him and you will find Him.  Make that your mission tonight and in the days to come.

Thoughts on July

This past month of July was one of the most trying for me in some time. A lot I am not able to talk about but I can say that I was hospitalized for most of the month and it was hard, and at times, scary. I emerged though, feeling absolutely great, and the happiest that I've been in years. That to me is a major miracle and I'm thankful to my God and to my doctor, Dr. Cole.  He knew exactly when to do what at the right time and we did what he recommended and it WORKED and I feel great. That is the short version.

I have struggled with depression most of my adult life or all of my adult life. I wonder sometimes if I could wave a wand and not have it if I would. I don't know. I hate having it but I do strongly believe the struggles I undergo and have undergone have made me into a person more like God and that makes me really happy.  

So I keep on keeping on. Day by day, sometimes hour by hour.  I follow Doctor's orders to the letter usually and pray to my God who gives me breathe by breathe.

So if you're struggling today know that God is bigger than your problems and if you trust Him, He can help you make it through them. Only He can heal. Only He can be trusted with your wounded heart.