The Cattle on a Thousand Hills

Hope.  It's this thing that I've held onto, no matter what.  No matter how hard it got and gets, I have hope.  My hope lies in God and in His power.  Think about it: the God who tells the sun when to shine, the God who owns the cattle on a thousand hills - this is the same God who cares for me, intimately.  

People are hearing me now.  Finally.  What I've felt and how I've felt for years is coming out to the surface and it's very painful but in another way it's liberating.  I'm feeling free for the first time in years.  I've let people into my life, to know the darkest parts of me and they are still my friends and family.  I guess that I've discovered love through this painful divorce.  Go figure!

There is so much I want to say but the internet is not the place for it.