On the verge of my future

Tonight I feel like I'm on the verge of something.  What I cannot tell you but I feel like God's gearing me up for something.  Not sure what.  Sometimes I wish we had plans that we could just download and view of our life.  Then there would be no real need for faith.

So tonight although I'm feeling sorry for myself I need to remember how GOD sees me and take that to heart and to my head!  Years of negative and harmful thoughts hurt my head and my heart.  

I've been to more therapy than most people do in their whole life.   It's only been the last 7 months that it's really helped.  I needed to clear the fog in my life and inside of my head in order to take a look into my soul.  

Tonight I feel that I have a choice: I can feel sorry for myself or I can rest in the knowledge that God is caring for my soul and life.  I choose the later.