A good day

It's been so stressful lately but today was a good day.  I felt decent and was productive at work.    I feel like I'm slowly getting the hang of things in my department and digging out from the mess the person before me left.

I'm just trying to do my best every day with the energy God gives me for that day.  That is, for me, what being faithful means.  I have to be faithful in the little things.  I also have to learn to be thankful for whatever circumstances God has put me in.  While taking personal responsibility for truly messing my life up and my marriage.  I am willing to take responsibility for my failings but I have already asked God for forgiveness.  He said "as far as the East is from the West, so far He has removed my transgressions from me."  That rules.  In every way.

The reality is that as much as things seem to be falling apart, God is actually blessing me.  I truly believe there is joy on the other side of sadness.  

So tonight I take it minute by minute, then hour by hour, then day by day.  A good friend had to remind me to do that.  Helpful suggestions from afar that I am thankful for.

goodnight all