Weary in spirit

I'm just weary.  Life and work have made me very very weary.  One of my children even said that tonight when I said that I was tired.  I heard "you've been tired all this week mom!"  It's amazing what people notice about you when you're not looking.

New job is good it's just that it's very stressful, at least right now.  I am glad that I will be able to rest up this weekend.  I need to renew my spirit because my soul is weary.  

Trying to do everything well sometimes makes me do nothing quite right.  So much pressure it seems, living under a microscope while people watch.  Tonight I am tuning out.  Perhaps I should dial back into God and into my relationship with Him.  He has become a new, old friend that I talk to throughout the day but especially when I'm driving.  It is for that hour plus a day during my commute that I think about God and how He is caring for me.  I know that He is caring for me today when I was stressed out at work.  He was caring for me tonight when I talked to my family on the phone.  He is caring for me now as I dwell on His goodness.

Lord, renew my spirit.  Make me more like You.  Provide strength and willingness to do what you have in front of me.  Help me not to look back but to look to you for my future and the future of my little family.