Something About A Long Day at Work

You know, I just finished my long day this week in which I work both jobs, totally 13 paid hours today.  Not including drive time, lunch and more drive time.  I'm beat tonight but it feels so good to be providing for myself and for my girls.   When I buy them something now it has even more meaning because I know that it took me X number of hours to earn it.  My whole outlook has changed.  

Had my first review at one of my jobs tonight and they gave me a whole nickel as a raise!  Ha.  I laughed out loud.  I was performing fine...it was just the 90 day review.  Guess in another year they do another one and the raise can be more.  I thought it was humorous.  It wouldn't even be a cost of living increase.  Then again, it's just a retail gig.  Workers are a dime a dozen, come fast leave faster.  Few stay so why compensate people when there are 10 people right behind them who want a job?  Especially in this economy.  I was just happy that they thought I was doing well.  I honestly didn't think I'd get any money for a raise.  It was funny.

My cat missed me today.  She was so happy to see me tonight when I just got home...she won't quit cuddling.  She's very affectionate for a cat.  I kinda like her.  She's been a good friend to me in the situation that I'm in.  My youngest is over the moon crazy for the cat.  She loves animals like me.  The oldest one likes our cat but not in the same way.  More like her dad in that way.  Funny.  

I feel good tonight.  I'm FREE and it feels good.  Gone are so many things that were not good.  I feel free now, free to be me, free to love my children in the way I want to, free to be the mom I was destined to be.  Free to be me.  This kind of freedom comes only from God.  I'm diggin it.