It is what it is

Feeling out of control tonight. Anxious. Got my taxes filed, my first time doing that alone in 10 years. Last year I took exceptions for the kids thinking that was normal but then later realized that I couldn't claim them, that HE could. So I underpaid taxes and my alimony wasn't taxed. So basically screwed. I owed about 2500.00. I was able to pay 1500 of it or so but it leaves me taxed out!

So I was just getting the debt he left me with almost paid down, I now face a while until I can be free of debt. It is what it is. It's where I am. It won't always be like this I know. It is what it is.

Tomorrow I am going in early and then plan to take a short lunch and leave early to go to the vet.

Tonight I just have to let this go. I have no control over it. I have learned a lot and this tax situation WILL NEVER happen to me again.

I just felt like I was getting out from under the pile. I had saved enough to move and put a downpayment on a new apartment and pay for a mover. Now, I'm starting from scratch and only have 6 months to get ready to move.

I want to scream, to yell and I can't. I'm smarter than this. I shouldn't be in this situation.

GRRRRR