Done. Done. Done.

Hard day at work. Hard day personally.  I had a rough day at work, not really related to work, just rough physically and I'm tired. Nothing went right today or so it seems but I need to realize that everything went according to God's plan for this day for me. I know this in my head but it does not make my heart feel better.  My heart is weary, my body worn out.

I have two many things on my plate, two many irons in the fire, too much to handle, whatever the expression is that sums up how I feel tonight. Defeated. Overwhelmed but not despondent. That is the difference. Where things like today used to WIPE ME OUT totally now they are just blips on the radar screen.  Even my dog has it in for me tonight. This morning I was in the shower, lathering my shampoo, minding my own business. I turn around and there, in my tub is my puppy. Water dogs. He promptly got shooed out. I kinda laughed because it was pretty funny.

Tonight is not the time to start any new projects. It is not the time to worry about what tomorrow may or might not bring. It is the time for me to rest in the Lord. Sometimes I need to do this in a very real way. Relax, mentally and physically, read my Bible, pray, dwell on God's word and listen for what I think He's trying to tell me.  And go to bed early. Tonight is a go to bed early night. In fact I might go there in the next 20 minutes!  ha!  I'm an old lady I tell you.

Today my body reacted in a way that I did not count on and it was horrible. I had to take extra medication to deal with it all. Then I was so tired I could barely do my work.  I ate something after work so I felt tons better.

You ever have days that feel like train wrecks? I feel like I've been run over by a train but my faith tells me that I'm right where God wants me...or He's trying to move me somewhere.

Don't like it when my child leaves angry at me for a discipline he/she totally deserved. I even let him/her off lighter than I had planned to at first.

I'm just done for the day. No big insights. Nothing inspiring. I feel flat, frustrated and exhausted. I know tomorrow is a new day in it with new mercies and I just have to trust that God will replenish my heart while I sleep.

Until then.