Counseling, Chocolate and Change

Counseling tonight at the place.  My mouth spewed forth thousands of words over the course of the hour.  It was like the hurt of years just flowed out of my mouth.  No answers, just lots and lots of questions.  What I realized tonight is that I might never know "why".  Not only that, I'm going to have to live with the lack of knowledge and be okay with that.  

Good counselors, I feel good talking to him/her.  She's younger than I am but that's okay.  I think God's brought her into my life for a reason.  She's always commenting on my way with words.   I wish that I could write like I talk.  Maybe I should get a recorder and then transcribe my feelings.  Hmmmm.. Thoughts for the future.

So I had my counseling, then got chocolate ice cream to boot!  yahoo.  Yum.  I love ice cream.   I'm talked out, now just want the peace of tv and a pillow and sofa.  ahhhhh.

Goodnight