I'm just so tired. Exhausted. Made it through another day, intact. That is always a bonus.
Learning that people fail you. Over and over again. It is hard to trust, even with friends. I trust my children, and some of my family. It is too bad it is this way. My trust was utterly broken and betrayed when my ex-spouse no longer wanted to be married to me. Frankly it has not been intact ever since. I've become self-reliant in a way while still knowing that my very breath comes from God and that I control nothing.
I feel like I learn the same lessons over and over and over again. Perhaps that is life. Perhaps that is the Christian journey. Perhaps I am just dunce. Perhaps.
My life feels like it's spinning out of control a little bit and I'm in that space where all you have and all that you can do is trust God, with everything in you. He alone is trustworthy.
So tired. This gal's calling it a night.
Night all.
I know you both, not naming anyone, but you did file for divorce first, wouldn't you say you broke that trust with him first? Just odd how you dismiss that fact over and over..
ReplyDeleteDear anonymous (I love anonymous posters)
ReplyDeleteSince only 10 people know of this blog's existence and only one knows both of us and she is a good friend, I'm going to assume that I know who you are. If you are not this person you can easily contact me on Facebook or my email and we can discuss this privately but your information is not true and the situation was much more complicated than you have intimated in your anonymous posting.
For someone who doesn't seem to care much it is funny you are following my blog. If I've got this wrong, please post a real message using your real name so we can have a real dialogue. Otherwise email me and we can discuss if you're up for it.
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I don't have a "name" because I'm not signed up on anything so "anonymous" is the choice I'm given!
ReplyDeleteAnyhow, since there's only 10 of us who follow, who you know, what's wrong with discussing it here? How can we pray for peace when we are given a slighted view of the real situation? All of us who know who you are know that joco court is public and we can see that you were first to file.
It's discerning to think of how you were victimized by your ex who filed for divorce, who sabotaged your trust, who devastated your whole being yet you were the one who filed first. That's the part that feels foggy. Makes other parts seem pretty foggy too. You are a Christian women, speak the truth so we know what we are praying for exactly. What part of this do you own?
This blog is my personal thoughts and feelings. If you would like to discuss something with me personally you obviously know who I am, so drop me an email and we can discuss it but I see no need to defend either my character or myself on my own blog. Better yet, include your name and I will write you directly to answer your concerns.
ReplyDeleteblog owner
This is to address your Anonymous poster:
ReplyDeleteWho do you think you are? What difference does it make who filed first? I'll tell you what matters, 2 people signed a piece of paper in the end that said they had had enough. It takes 2 in any marriage, 2 to start it off and 2 to end it. And if you were a "good friend" of this blog owner and had been following her journey you would know by now, how she has admitted to her mistakes and is trying to put her life back to together piece by piece. She doesn't need a follower to tear her down any more than she has already done herself. It's so easy to sit behind a screen and past judgement on someone else's journey in life, much harder to face that person and tell them how you truly feel. You Anonymous need to BACK OFF.
Wow...testy people these days! I enjoy, as a fellow woman of divorce who shares 50% of the blame, the fact that she is not always happy and actually real with her readers. I ran across this blog in my searching for answers last year. I can relate to the good and bad days, the joy and anger. I personally filed for divorce. But that does not mean that he didn't leave me emotionally, spiritually, and physically long before I left him legally.
ReplyDelete-Heather in Bakersfield
As I mentioned, the first poster mentioned that he knew both of us, so Heather my friend thought you were him masquerading as a female. My friend is very protective of me.
ReplyDeleteIf the first anonymous wants to talk to me, he knows where to find me.
For now my gosh lets move on. I have and am.
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