Tonight I was driving in my car on my way to pick up THREE of countless scripts that I needed tonight (took last dose). I was driving home wondering how many thousands of dollars and how many hours of driving I spend a year at the local CVS pharmacy! Sometimes when you can't change the situation you're in, you can take a different look at it, and I find humor helps.
Like....the humor of taking one med to counteract the results of another. Like the countless trips to the pharmacy, so many they know you by name when you go through the drive-thru to pick up your meds. Like you know your doctor's assistants, front office personnel, his partners, and just about everyone else at his practice. Like the fact that when the pharmacist at the hospital gave a handout of common psych meds, I had taken 30 of them at some point in the past 18 years. These are things that I cannot change so instead I occasionally poke fun at myself. You have to.
Like it's funny when you're in the hospital because you see the same people sometimes....staff and patients! I had multiple hospitalizations over the past 5-6 years and have been poked, prodded, shocked, medicated, not medicated, inpatient, outpatient, partiallly hospitalized, you name it.
This stuff is humorous. I have a particularly hard to treat case of bipolar disorder I in case you wonder what it is I have. I am an ultra-rapid cycler which means I cycle from high to low in the course of hours, instead of others days, weeks, months or sometimes years. I've done ECT treatments, 14 or 16 of them, which didn't work. I've spent countless hours in THERAPY and I hate that word. When did "they" decide it should be called "therapy" and not counseling? I hate the word therapy. Then again, I don't like cliches either.
So tonight I'm just a girl. Hanging onto life, her job and her kids with all that she has, for however long she has. I have a slight smirk on my face as I thought about checking to see if CVS is a publically traded company and that I should buy stock if it is!
I laugh at the fact that stuff that's easy for others is hard for me. I can't change it so why beat myself up over it. I've done that too much and so have others.
This mom's gotta go call her kiddos. Night all. Go laugh at yourself tonight. Find something funny about your situation that you cannot change and change the way you see it - reframe your refererence.
So true my friend about laughing at yourself or the situation you are in. Sometimes that's all you can do. I bought a bible called The Working Mother's Bible for busy Mom's. I have a hard time finding time to pray, to talk to God so I thought by having a bible that sort of breaks down the language barrier I have reading the Kings James version it might be helpful for me. I'm a really slow reader by nature. I don't know if this will help me, but its a start right? CB
ReplyDeleteI like to read Psalms every night before bed. Whatever makes it easier to absorb God's word, if that means a new Bible or even a Bible cover, dust it off and see what God thinks of you and your worth. I think you'll find that He thinks "you are a treasure, worth more than anything under the sun and the moon....God's greatest treasure, the treasure of you." - Steven Curtis Chapman.
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