Sometimes I don't know how I deal with all that I manage to do. God has given me super human strength to get through each day with just enough energy to do what I need. Not much extra but enough for the basics. I'm feeling better than I have in years which is so great. Lost 50 lbs. That feels awesome. I have more to lose but it will be a process.
I feel the weight of being a parent weighing heavily upon my head. Not in a bad way, in a somber way. I want so badly to do the right things with my kids, to not mess them up. To teach them values, morals, tell them about God. Read them the Bible. I want to teach them how to be grown ups.
Then there is my job which is highly stressful because it's in claims. Everybody is usually grumpy when it comes to claims...so I deal with unhappy people a lot. Unhappy people whose stuff got broken or went missing or got stolen. I do my best to make things right by people.....
Then there are the 50 things wrong with my health that make my life well, interesting. I have some unique problems that not a lot of people have.
I think that what I'm trying to say is that I feel like a LOT right now. I've got two little people who won't go to sleep!!!!!! grrrrrrr. I'm going to bed soon so they better fall asleep.
Tomorrow I have to cook bacon for breakfast. Fun fun! and other stuff. Saturday is my cooking morning meal while Sunday has become cereal day 'cuz we have to be at church early.
TIRED OF ALL THE STRESS. Must sleep now.
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