God is Bigger than the Battle

Heard a song tonight on the radio on my way home, said something about God being bigger than the battle.  That resonated with me.  I feel like I'm in a battle and have been for a couple of years.  The battle was for my marriage and unfortunately I'm losing.  I feel like it was a spiritual battle too.  

I like the concept that God's bigger than anything we struggle with down here.  That our most complicated of human situations is simple to Him.  

I often feel an intense yearning for Heaven.  I long to walk on gold streets.  I long for a body that's not riddled with one ailment or another.  I long for a mind that's not bothered by bipolar disorder.  Heck, maybe when we get to Heaven God will heal my family too!  I got to share the gospel with my girls this past weekend and my oldest said she believed.  It was precious.  The little one is still young and learning.  She is interested in God though and we talk about Him and His Son, Jesus, all the time.  She prays the most beautiful prayers at dinner too.

I'm sure many thought that I would fracture under the stress of this divorce.  What it's shown is my frailty but God's power working through my frailty.  His grace that covers my sins and His forgiveness that offers a clean slate and a chance at a fresh new life.  

Without God there would be no reason to live.   Someone told me the other day that now God would be my husband.  I think that's what married Christian people just tell us soon to be divorced gals to make us feel better.  It's a nice thought but the cliche of it makes me a little sick.