Saturday, April 25, 2009

My Heart Hurts

Tonight my heart hurts but not for myself.  It hurts for my girls, my oldest specifically.  Tonight she lost it, I mean, an emotional breakdown.  She was so angry and mad at me.  Then I wouldn't let her go to bed angry and we sat and talked.  She said "I wanted you all day mommy.  I want you every day."   My daughter is trying to tell me something and I need to hear it loud and clear.  She needs me.  She needs more time with me.  I told her that I was trying to get more time with her but that it takes time.  I'm fed up, mad as hell and I want my children.  Tonight was the final straw.  

I'm so tired.  I just want what's fair.  I want to be a mother.  Since when did someone signing a petition for divorce make me less of a mom?  I'll fight to my dying day for these children.  No ONE and I repeat, NO ONE should get in the way of a mother's love for her children.   Nor should anyone underestimate my resolve in this matter.

Goodnight, 
Signed a Frustrated Mom

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