So Weary

I'm so weary.  I want my children; I'm tired of being in limbo.  I've waited months and months hoping the spouse would become more reasonable with regard to visitation and he is not.  Instead he seems to be more protective.  

I want my children in my home.  I'm just so weary.  I'm more resolved than ever to fight for them.  I will fight to my last breath for those children.  

I almost said that I want my life back.  In reality I want the new life I'm making and I want to include them in on it.  I mean, I AM including them but I want more time with them.  Even in the divorce and now with the custody I am trying to be controlled and it makes me angry, makes me weary and makes me want to scream.  I WANT MY CHILDREN.