I feel like I'm finally starting my new life. In a couple of days there is a good chance my divorce will be finalized (please let it be). I'm ready to move on. Ready to be open to whatever situations and whomever God has for me or doesn't.
But I'm not closed to the idea of having a special someone in my life. In fact although my life is hectic, you can't wait for life to slow down to meet people....for me, as a single mom, I've just got to fit it into my life NOW. I've been through the stages where I threw myself into work, into this or that. Now I want a balanced life. I want a family again. I want to be a family with someone again. Very much.
Part of me knows the way God has brought people into my life before and part of me has an inkling of where God is leading but another part of me has no clue at all what God is up to. I wish that I knew.
Right now I need to learn what it's like to live a more balanced life. I remember two years ago I would come home from working all sorts of odd shifts, and be soooo tired. I didn't have a set schedule for over 6 months and then I worked two jobs for the next year or so. I'm happy to just have one full time job now.
I'm very confused. I do not understand men at all. I give up. I thought I might have it figured out and NOPE wrong again. I give. Well I'm certainly not going to lose any sleep over it all. No one is worth that. (well maybe my kids...but we're not talking about them!).
Who knows? All I know is that I'm putting on my jammies and watching some tv. I did not sleep good again last night (new house, matress turned, room is too light, to name a few). I've got parent teacher conferences tomorrow at 7:30 then my car goes to the shop to get looked at. I am broker than broke so hope it doesn't cost an arm or a leg.
Until next time,
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