New Design?

Decided to change up my blog a little bit.  The red roses are for how passionate I am about my flowers!  Oh, I cannot wait until I get my own place again someday because I am going to have the most beautiful flower garden in the whole world.  I cannot wait.  Someday.  Roses are probably some or one of my favorite flowers - they are beautiful and dainty.  Like a woman's heart.

Busy day today with life, work, life getting in the way of work which doesn't work.  All this and I get to come home to my kitties who love me no matter what.  We three are on the sofa, chilling out and watching the boob tube.

Thankful today to have a good attorney who is looking out for my best interests.  In a few days we either sign a settlement or the judge decides.  I don't care either way.  I hope we settle...it would be easier.

Today my thoughts were with an old friend who is going through hell on earth.  I know the path he is headed for and wish that I could spare him from it.  God will walk with Him, whether or not he feels good about God's involvement.  I went through a period at first when I couldn't believe that God would allow this to happen to me and then I eventually thought "why not me?"  We weren't promised to be immune from hurt and pain - we live in a broken world.  When we marry, even as believers, we are two broken people.  Sometimes one person's brokenness is worse than the other's and it comes between them.

I still don't understand why God is doing what He's doing.  I trust Him but I do not understand fully.  And I might not even understand while I am down here.  That part is a little hard to wrap your head around.  I've been through the valley where it was so dark I couldn't see where I was going.  I wish that I could spare others this pain but all I can do is walk through it with them.  I heard on the radio the concept of the gift of mercy....and it had to do with being able to offer mercies to another who is struggling.  I believe that perhaps I might have this gift but do not know.  If not I sure would like it.  It would come in handy as I have friends who have recently lost relatives and it's hard to know how to comfort their hearts.

If you are happily married tonight thank your God for this.  If you are not, know that God will never leave you or forsake you.  He promised this in the Bible.  Take that and put it in your heart tonight.

Until next time....I remain.....just a girl.