Another day has passed. I am one day closer and maybe literally one day away from being divorced. Tonight I have put away the stressed out feelings and hurt and am just concentrating on the job at hand. Bottom line this was not my choice. I tried very hard to make it work. Now it's over and it breaks my heart on one hand and on the other my heart is glad to be free.
I'm going to be free again. Free again to be me. Free again to be the new me. Free to love again if God brings someone into my life at the right time. This is honestly the first time in two years that I can say that I am not closed off to the idea of my having another person in my life someday to love. That would be really great. I would do so many things differently this next time around. I want my next marriage to be the marriage for my lifetime. I want to grow old with my next husband. I want to travel with him when we're older and the kids are grown.
I want to do things I've never done, go places I've never gone, try things I've never tried. I'm ready for my future to start any day.
It is going to be an adventure but I serve a big God who cares for my every need before I know about them.
Here's to phase II God. Please bless it, bless me and my family. Goodnight and amen.
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