Still God's Plan, right?

I was so ready for it to finally be over.  I was geared up, ready.  Then we have to re-schedule.  I'm trying not to have a bad attitutude about it because as a friend reminded me this is still God's plan.  It was a good reminder.  God's still on His throne.

Today I had lunch with my kids and they loved it. I used to do that a couple of years ago when the big one was in Kindergarten.  Now we're at a much different spot.  The little one tonight wanted to know if I was coming tomorrow to eat lunch.  :-)  That melted my heart.

Big nap today.  I'm sure that tomorrow will be filled with work busy bodies trying to figure out what happened.  I've decided to just relax and go with the flow.  I'm probably buried in email land.....but as I do every day I start at the bottom them I work my way to the top every single day.  Needless to say I get a LOT of emails a day.

Seriously laid down this afternoon and slept for like 4 hours.  It was amazing.  I was weary.  You know what I mean?  If you've ever been weary you know exactly what I mean.  My spirit was weary.  I think that is why Jesus said "come to me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest."  How cool is that?  How amazing God's love for me and for you!

Tonight I had my weekly counseling.  It was good.  I have few outlets in which to REALLY truly share the way I feel so it is good that I go to this place.  It has helped me to heal.

Had ribs and red cream soda tonight near the Legends.  It was awesome.  Lonely but awesome.  About a year ago I would go and eat my to go ribs in the car in the Nebraska Furniture Mart parking lot.  Call my kids and talk while enjoying the cool night's air. Maybe someday someone will join my pilgrimage every couple of months to Arthur Bryant's BBQ with me.

You know, I'm fairly okay with being alone.  I have been for years.  Even before he filed I was alone.  I spent every evening alone after kids were in bed then went to bed alone, woke up alone and did it day after day after day.  Now I'm tired of being alone.  I want to share my life with someone, with the right someone in God's timing.  God has perfect timing.  I would like to say that I am always on His timing but I'm not.  We get out of sync then He brings me back in line with Him and we're good again.

Well I'm going to watch some tv then maybe chat on the phone later.  Relax.  Listen.  Might watch some tv until then.  Ahhhhhh.