Another day has passed and I spent it with my two favorite people. Have I told you they're short? It's true! They are the true blessing that came from my love of my marriage.
Big day. We did church and then had all kinds of fun today.
Tonight though we were looking at my rings, especially my wedding rings and I told one of my kids that I might have to get some petroleum jelly to get them off because in a couple of weeks we'll finally be divorced. Then a little hand started rubbing my arm and I got a hug. It was priceless. I told this tiny person that I was sorry that we had put them in this situation and that I know it's really hard but that I know God has a future for us all. I just shut my eyes tight and pretended not to cry. Little arm reached out and rubbed my arm with my eyes shut I know that he/she could see right through into my heart.
Tonight I am going to bed EARLY! It's been a wonderful weekend.
Must consult doctor to figure out why I feel like I have arthritis all the time. Something's up. I take more Alleve than I ever thought I would but it is the only thing that makes the ache go away.
So this little old lady is off to take her Alleve and then I plan to hit the hay. Tomorrow is a new day. God's got plans for me tomorrow. I just have to show up. Sometimes just showing up is all He needs us to do in order for Him to work in our or in someone else's life.
Short of working at church I feel like I have little impact on the world and on others. I need to find a bigger venue for my voice to be heard. Hmmmmm must contemplate how to do that. Tiny voice inside my head keeps telling me to WRITE A BOOK. Then I hear the other "voices" that tell me that I could never do that, who do I think I am? I haven't done anything amazing or accomplished a great feat or have any deep wisdom.
Yet it just keeps coming back to this book thing. I have a feeling that there are others who can relate to certain things that I've gone through who might want to hear what a normal, 30 something Christian female has to say about things. Deep and hard things. I just want my story to glorify God. I want to tell my story because I believe that it would be for God's glory, not mine.
Must go to bed now and ponder. Right after I go by the Alleve bottle. (hey you have to have a sense of humor at the fact that our bodies are all slowly dying). No that's not funny if you or someone you know is dying or has died. I just mean, from the time we are created, we are aging, moving closer to the day when we will be with the Father. When we will worship at the throne of our Heavenly Father, the great Physician. When my body which doesn't really work that good down here will be healed. Hey maybe my marriage will be healed in heaven! You never know. I'm not going to hold my breath on the last one. LOL
Good night to all and to all a good night. May you glorify God in whatever you do: whether that is being a CEO of your own company or that you are a stay at home mom. Both are needed and both are important. Whatever your role, do it heartily as to the Lord. That is your reasonable service.
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