Done. I'm just done. I'm thinking that in order to get anyone's attention one needs to be skinny, blonde, have no kids and be in perfect shape. Well screw that.
I am who I am. I do not give a damn what anyone else thinks about it.
I'm just done. I will not be used as the friend who listens to all the dramas and goes home by herself. I have better things to do with my time than to be the Dear Abby. I am not a dear Abby. I am a human being myself with feelings. My struggles are as important as yours are. Not more important but on the same level.
I'm just done. I'm sick of being with guys who treat me like shit. Sick of it. If you don't want to pay attention to what I'm saying when we're together then buzz off and go do something else 'cuz I have better things to do with my time than mess around and be treated as less than human.
That's pretty much what I have to say tonight. I'm glad I have like one reader. The bottom line is we're all pretty alone....a few of us manage to find someone. The rest of us would just like to be treated as if they might have a chance at happiness.
I'm DONE. I'm so pissed it's not even funny. I'm not the fat friend that everyone tells their woes to. I'm a human being.
So screw off. You know who you are.
First things first...breathe! Take a deep breath and remember that you are a child of God whose worth is not defined by anyone or anything apart from God. I have been taken advantage of much in the same way. People love to complain - even if they deny it - and they love to have someone to complain to. As the listening ear type, it can get extremely old, especially if they're not interested in my viewpoint. I try to remind myself that no one is perfect, and the best we can do is find people who, while imperfect, bring out the best in us and who seek to be a great friend most of the time. There are people like that out there, although it can be frustrating to find them. I'll be praying for you!
ReplyDeleteNot Christ like at all! Maybe you should be the friend who listens, how many have listened to you? Are you only interested in listening if you get something in return? Wrong thought process!
ReplyDeleteI love anonymous posters...I never said once in this blog I was perfect. I'm freaking human. I struggle. I do things imperfectly. I vent. I don't vent in public much if at all.
ReplyDeleteI've been blessed with a few friends who have listened to me. In turn I try to listen to them back. It's a give and take of relationships. I've also been a relationship with someone who all he did was take until I had NOTHING LEFT.
I would encourage "anonymous" to email me if he/she knows who I am and air their grievances like a grownup, not on a blog.
I will consider whether I wish to remove this entire post. I have like 3 readers so it's not like I don't know who you are. This blog has always been my safe place to vent. That is why only about 10 people know about it.
If it ceases being a safe place to process the hell that I've gone and am going through then I will go elsewhere or vent in other ways.
I'm not always like Christ. I try to be. I screw up daily. I ask for forgiveness for things I do a lot. Both from God and from other people. So nobody writing this blog has EVER claimed to be more than just a woman who is travelling through life, slightly on the maxed out side.
Again, if the wounded party would like to dialog with me then I encourage him/her to email me privately. Since I have only given this blog to about 10 people I have a pretty good idea of who you are and would very much like to work through something.
-Supermom