Free the Finger Day!

I'M FREE!
If I would have gone to court yesterday today would have been the first day I was divorced.  Went to lunch with a friend who point blank asked me when I was going to take my ring off.  At first I had all these reasons but then I realized that none of them really made any sense so I promised to give it some thought.

Then tonight, after having a wonderful time with the kids eating burgers and chasing rainbows (literally) and playing in the rain I went into my bathroom, lathered on the lotion and pulled and pulled and pulled until finally the little bands of titantium and diamond are now off of my wedding ring finger.  On my terms.  You see, it took me until this week to really FEEL free.  To feel HOPE.  I had figured on taking the ring off the day the judge declared us divorced, being all sad and crying and what really happened was that I was in there giggling like a schoolgirl trying to coach these rings off my fingers.

So salute my photo cuz it might be the last one I ever put on here.  My sad little chubby ring finger hurts tonight but nevertheless I am free.  Free for whatever God has for me.  Free to think again about my own happiness.  Free in about a month to seek after love.  I might not have the rings on but technically I am still married and will act like it until such day that I am no longer married.

I am excited about phase II of my life.  God is going to continue His work in me.  I will follow where He leads me.  I will open my heart again to the concept of love.

Very excited.  Liberated.  Free.  Relief.  Not what I expected but instead just full of joy.